[ And he's suddenly conscious of just how badly he wants this Joshua to be telling the truth; even after everything, some stupid and stubborn part of him wants to believe the best in the other boy ( his partner ), to believe that Joshua wouldn't really Erase everything like he promised. It was some kind of final trick, right? One last practical joke for old time's sake, ha ha.
He hates him, but he doesn't --
He wants to be wrong, wrong, wrong, but he knows he isn't --
( And he's ashamed of just how badly he wants to abandon this rage and be proven wrong. )
There are hot tears burning at the corner of his eyes, and trying furiously to blink them away does nothing but make them boil over and go spilling down his cheeks. The hand knotted in Joshua's shirt doesn't loosen its grip, but Neku is trembling violently as his emotions go to war with themselves. ] Why --?! I don't -- I don't understand!
3/4 OOPS LMAO
He hates him, but he doesn't --
He wants to be wrong, wrong, wrong, but he knows he isn't --
( And he's ashamed of just how badly he wants to abandon this rage and be proven wrong. )
There are hot tears burning at the corner of his eyes, and trying furiously to blink them away does nothing but make them boil over and go spilling down his cheeks. The hand knotted in Joshua's shirt doesn't loosen its grip, but Neku is trembling violently as his emotions go to war with themselves. ] Why --?! I don't -- I don't understand!